Curve Balls and Spring Rain
Like a curve ball that doesn’t make it across
home plate, or a Spring without rain, we are sometimes left to wonder whether God
has heard our prayers.
Often people imagine a Santa like figure in
heaven keeping track of who has been naughty or nice. But reality is our God is
ever knowing, he doesn’t need to keep track! More like a patient parent waiting
for you to come willingly to him with your pain, God is doing the same.
I remember when I was very young and would pray.
I would pray for ridiculous things and expect them to appear as if it were
magic. Afterall, if blind men could see and the lame could walk, what was a
little Barbie doll appearing in my room? And that was how my immature mind thought of God, like
a magician. One night I knelt next to my bed and began to pray out loud as my
parents made their way upstairs. I don’t remember my exact words but ended it
by saying I was in awe of God and his magical ways. My mother turned white as
my dad’s teeth dropped. This went against all they had taught me thus far, not
to mention my Catholic schooling. My parents scolded me, and I was told in no
uncertain terms to never refer to God and the word magic in the same statement
again. I remember being confused by how my parents reacted, wondering why what
I had said was wrong. To an immature faith, miracles and magic might be synonymous.
Prayers are not always answered in our time, or
in our way. Our Father knows what we need, even if we don’t see it at first. I
have a banner on my computer that reads Pray.Wait.Trust. Waiting
is not one of my strong suits, and although I attempt to leave my prayer with
God, I also lose patience and attempt to take it back giving myself the control
over it. That certainly never ends well, and I ultimately go back in prayer,
giving it right back to God.
When I am feeling particularly lost, or worried
about money and lift this in prayer, I am almost always answered in an
unexpected way. My child like self would expect to win the lottery or another
windfall of money, which has never been the case. Instead, God gives me an
incredible appreciation for all I have. As I slip into bed at night, I realize
how very fortunate I am to be surrounded by such comfort. Or I look around my
home and see all that I have that is extra, realizing so many would be happy to
have a fraction of what I have. Soon, I am saying a prayer of thanksgiving,
instead of focusing on what I think I need.
Prayer is one of our greatest intimacies, words
shared between us and our Father. They are curated in the quiet of our heart
and put forth by our soul. No matter how far away God may seem, he is only a whisper
away. The curve ball may not always make it across the plate, the earth may not
always be drenched by spring rain, but God is ever there, ever listening to
every prayer.
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